Yes. Everybody has that certain someone who knows how to triggers the deepest feelings of both happiness and sorrow. No matter how long it has passed, or how short you have been separated....no matter how many miles are between you or how often you get to see each other, that one person never ceases to be the "special someone". There is always that someone who wakes up your butterflies when he smiles. Just like that, for no special reason.
Well, I am writing this post because I am kind of sick of that feeling and I need to erase it somehow.
Here is why.
I am a helpless romantic who believes that the impossible can have it's prefix removed. :) I believe that believing is the key itself. So what I am trying to say is that - I am in a constant quest for love.
If you wish to fight, fights will come to you unquestionably more often than to those people who stay in the corner and keep quiet, right? Logically, yes.
So what happens? I bump into the wrong ones all the time. Now, it would be a problem if I knew that they are the wrong ones from the very start (or if I at least started off cautiously) , the problem is- I start with a conviction that "this could be it". And, (since I am here writing about this, quite obviously -> ) I make a complete fool out of myself. Even worse, I get heartbroken and I get hurt badly.
I believe in words like "forever", "true love", "unbreakable bonds" and I don't say those words unless I really mean them. However, many say those words without actually realizing what they are saying. So the truth ends up to be that once you stop being with that someone (who seems that has quite casually dropped those words because he felt bored :/ ), in most cases he forgets about you. The fact that you are still rigidly holding to the past and to the lost words and promises, is just plain stupid.
If he was that special someone, if he is that special someone- he wouldn't have let you go without fighting for you. You would have been that special someone for him as well. You wouldn't have stopped being special for him. Ever.
Some people can easily be replaced. That is something I need to start believing in. Because I believe that each and every person is one and only one, unique and irreplaceable. Every person leaves traces that are not erasable. And it hurts to keep believing in that.
I remember when a good friend of mine told me that believing in one, true, eternal love is like believing in Santa. True, I don't believe in Santa. But I believe in fairy tales. (That is similar to believing in Santa, right?) And I am not ready to give up on them. And I am not ready to give up on love. I will NEVER be.
But,
if you are reading this,
and you too have been hurt so many times,
just try to hold back your feelings a bit more.
That's what I am promising myself to do.
Save your feelings for those who really deserve it. Find a princess you are within and find someone who will treat you like a princess. And then, treat that one like a prince. Because he'll deserve it.
